meu braziliana

Wow, oh my god. she is such a cutie. We spent all last night watching "halloween" the heavy metal rock band. She was telling me stories of how shw was a metal head when she was 16. We ate chinese food and kissed all night. She is a super short little cutie thing. It is amazing how much I am drawn to her. It feels like the earth is off center when she is around. I just wanna be so close to her. I know that it is just an amazing crush, but that doesnt mean that it cannot grow into a real relationship. The only problem is that I am only here for two more weeks. Que lastima! I was planning on coming back in 6 months. I think that i will make it sooner. maybe 3. Also the more money I dont spend here the sonner I can come back. But it is hard I want to spend all my money on her.

I just cannot get her out of my head. her cute off-center smile. her amazing lips. Loving eyes. her little hands and sexy toes. and her small soft belly. I love bellies. And the small sexy underware that she has on around the house.

It is all so new. But I took her flowers to work yesterday. I dont know where it is going. I keep wondering why we have gotten so close so quickly. Today I will spend the day with friends. To make sure that I am centered and not completely sucked into her life. But I wanna be sucked in. But I also wanna be healthy. I keep wondering why. But that is kind of a useless question. The real question is "Are you going my way?" Love, marriage, children, adventure, excitment, peacfulness, a life beyond our wildest dreams, and saving the world. It is not as easy as you think. And you may think some of it trite. But it is really difficult and alot of hard work. The path is simple. "Dont let yourself stop yourself from being whatever you want" but the work sometimes feels like confronting death itself.

And again I think. Wow, my god. so cute.